Oh Me.

More and more I realize I need people to chide me for motivational purposes.  If only I could get into the habit of taunting myself when I think negatively or when I don’t take 30 minutes a day to exercise, or when I don’t sit down and write something for that matter.

In terms of New Year’s Resolutions, I deemed I would be more DEMONSTRATIVE.  So far, so good there, although it’s creating a negative impact in some areas.  When you express yourself, you accept more consequences.  You also realize through focusing on your feelings how miserable certain things *cough* non-challenging/emotionally draining work *cough* make you.  While being less demonstrative of my feelings, it was much easier to brush things off.  Now the same things are making me edgy.  Nothing worthwhile is ever easy, and while it is tiring to remind myself of that, I will have to.  And when I can’t, I expect everyone I know to help me out.  COME ON.  I helped you once, probably.  It’s the very least – oh, you will?  Thanks bud.  I’ve always said you’re the greatest.

But yeah, Wii Fit jabs me with “Too busy to work out yesterday, eh?” and that’s all it takes.  Now if I could just have somebody say that to me in every aspect of my life…  not the working out thing, but applied contextually.   Like I wish the dog would say to me, in a clumsy dog voice, “I didn’t mean to bite you while you were wiping my paws down.  PS, you missed a spot, are you okay with having to mop that up later?  If not, everyone will judge you!”

All right.  Picture time.

garden variety

About Nikki

I've been writing since I was in kindergarten where I Crayola-markered an epic tale of a tiger and a balloon on a stack of lined papers folded into a booklet and stapled along the edge (carefully, and by my teacher). I love DIY, sewing, folksy music, animals and getting out to look at and listen to nature.
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